I called you today and you read me the introduction to Sunvalley.
I also called you last night, 1:30am my time. Maybe later. I kept thinking...Zach probably thinks I'm drunk for calling this late. I didn't even have a single drink the whole night.
Zachary, I worked to hard all these months to get you out of my head and out of my heart. I feel crazy for I'm not even sure why I still hold onto you. I mean...I don't think about you as much, but then little reminders of you come up now and then. And all the feelings come back that I thought I had forgotten. You know? It's weird. And I know that you'll never love me, because I'm just not the one for you.
I loved you then, but just a part of me that still wants to be there and just take care of you. I guess that's why we meshed so perfectly before - we just needed someone. Anyone that would take us. And we took one another.
I hope you find that one that will make you happy. Really, I mean that.
I woke up today and I thought about how depressing Saturdays are. Saturdays are meant for lovers - not lonely people. Saturdays are for lovers, after work all week you have that Saturday to sleep in and have breakfast together. Just lounge around and watch tv. Do couple things. It's not always about sex.
But I only got to experience this once. With my last boyfriend, I slept over on a Friday night. We woke up together on Saturday and he kissed me. We watched some tv while still in bed, cuddling one another. More kisses and what not. I don't even remember what was on tv, because he picked. I just enjoyed laying there next to him. Anyway, I just wanted to share because I don't know if you've had that. Whether you have or haven't...it's just a great feeling that you may relate to.
Well, I only had it that once. We broke up shortly after that Saturday. But that lazy Saturday we were happy.
And so waking up alone today with nothing to do.
Saturdays are meant for lovers. And I know you want that one that will stay with you no matter what. I just hope you find her. And when you do I'll be happy for the two of you.
Meanwhile, I found this today.